October 16, 2007

Just a quick update. We are all doing good right now and just doing the usual routine of running kids here and there. Everyone is healthy for the moment and I'm enjoying that. Well, everyone except Buddy the dog :-(. He's had an upset tummy today so I'm keeping my eye on him even as I type this now. Bob already came home once today to shampoo the carpets...I don't want to put him through another shampooing tonight :-).

I've been feeling okay. A bit more tired because I have had to up my liver detoxing and am taking some grapefruit seed extract which is supposed to kill off fungus in the system. The good news is that I seem to be tolerating these things so much better than before. I need to get my liver enzymes checked in another 4 weeks and so I want to be more aggressive with the detoxing to see if it will make any difference. I've been praying that my body can withstand more treatment now and we won't feel forced to move right away. This topic of moving has been hard for me to say out loud and so I won't be going in to much detail about it right now.

I will share what we have found out regarding the mold issue. We had some mold that developed in one of our walls that stemmed from a roof leak. We were able to find the problem and fix it, however, not before some mold had set in. I later had some testing done with these little petri dishes and sent off to a special laboratory which didn't show as much as we thought it would. The problem is that its not going to pick up the dead mold so its no help. But, you can still have reactions to the dead antigens that it puts off. Fun, huh?

One thing that really caused me problems was that when I first found the mold I was getting ready to paint. So, as I scraped away the old paint where the water had caused a bubble it had all this mold underneath. Well, I inhaled a bunch of it and was really sick right after. We had the section replaced but its hard to say if its somewhere we can't see still. But, we do know there is no more water because of having some mold specialists come out and do all their special gadgets on it and let us know that it was indeed all dry and no more mold growing. However, to fix the problem entirely would expose me to even more issues and they didn't think that would be a good idea. For the average person its not dangerous, but for me it is. As I have worked with more doctors who deal with these types of issues, through a variety of blood tests, it appears to be more of the culprit than anything else. Its really disrupted my system.

It seems like this journey has taken so many twists and turns in my head that it may start spinning at any moment. But, I'm so thankful that it hasn't been that way for God. He knows my body inside and out, what makes me tick and what makes me sick. I was just meditating on Proverbs 16:3 today. It says, "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." As I have done a better job at letting go of my own agenda, being willing to commit my plans to prayer and allowing God to be intimately involved in the process, it seems as though I feel stronger and things are more clear. I thought I was doing this all along, but the truth is that I really was not understanding what it meant to commit my plans. I'm great at making plans and even executing them at times too :-). But, committing them to God has been much different. Part of this process for me has been where I put my mind. As I commit my steps to the Lord, then I can relax and trust that He will help me walk out the next steps. Before I would pray and ask for guidance but then I would worry and wait, worry and wait and then get tired of waiting and make things happen regardless. Now I commit my plans to the Lord and do my part and then wait for God to do his...minus the worry. It seems as though the worry part was the big roadblock. I feel like those roadblocks are slowly coming down. Its not an overnight process but I feel like I'm making some inroads again.

Better go for now...the brain feels fuzzy and I can't be held responsible for what I say from this point on...lol. God is Good!
Blessings, Tanya