Friday, Dec 7

It seems as though I've been writing less and less. Its not for lack of content :-). There is always something wild and crazy going on around, which suits me just fine. But, part of it is because I have been having a few more "good" days as of late. As of tonight, I have made it to all three of Whitney's basketball games. Every time I go, it seems my body handles the stimulus a little better and I can actually sit back and take in every moment. It has been such an incredible blessing being there to cheer my daughter on. I can't even put it into words adequately without feeling like I might get a bit emotional about it. I went nearly two years with out seeing her play but maybe only a couple times. Last year I didn't even make it to one game. The best part is how much she appreciates me being there. I catch her "checking" on me during the game sometimes when she gets pulled out for a break and we give each other the secret sign that all is well. Her heart is so big and as she continues to march towards independance I can't help but feel she is turning into an amazing young woman.

This week I had an impromtu doctor's appointment with a homeopathic doctor. I've never worked with someone who just does this type of treatment as their main form of treatment. Its a long and involved story about how I actually ended up getting there on such short notice, but lets just say it felt like this huge window opened up on so many levels that I had to go and see what this was all about. So, after about an hour of speaking with this woman and giving her my history I left with my plant-based homeopathic remedy. Tomorrow is my day to try it so we'll see how it goes. I'm very curious to see what will come of this type of treatment.

Right now I have been enjoying this time of extra energy and trying to use it as wisely as possible. On the days Whitney has a basketball game I do everything in my power to relax, take a nap and hydrate right up until its time to go. It seems to be making a difference. On other days I've been enjoying doing extra reading and spending more one-on-one time with the kids. I can't tell you how grateful I am to be able to have these precious moments with my family. To feel more connected to them and to be a complete unit is something that's hard to articulate.

I am looking forward to Christmas for the first time in over three years and have such joy at the possibility of being downstairs and sitting with everyone around the tree. I'm sure I'll have to go lay back down afterwards, but that's okay with me. I'm learning to not be quite so greedy these days :-). And, I'm doing better at taking things one day at a time. God is good!
Blessings, Tanya