Gearing up!

It's suddenly feeling like what I'm trying to accomplish may just be too big. Either I'm very clueless about this or very determined and only time will tell the difference. I don't want to have do this just to say I've finally read the Bible front to back. I really want to see what I'm willing to do to make God's word in my life a bigger staple. I know that do this it's going to mean giving up any "fun" reading I may have had planned. Or even my self-help and psychology "fun" reading also needs to be put on hold. I've heard that it takes a certain amount of days for a behavior to become a habit. My goal in all of this is that I fall in love with reading and asking questions again on a daily basis. Not someone else's opinion of God's word, not the latest book that everyone is reading. Just between me and God. What is He trying to show ME personally. And then be transparent enough to share that with whomever may want to know. I know for myself I always glean so much from what other people are learning so I guess that's why I didn't want to just do this alone.

We all have our reasons for feeling pushed for time and not being able to read or study our Bibles to the degree we would like to. I think most, if not all are pretty valid reasons. There is no judgement here. But I hope that I can make the next 90 days free of other reasons, even if dinner is late on the table or it may mean soup and sandwiches more often than before...to see what God would have in store for this summer season.

What should I be expecting or believing for? I'm not sure about that either. Part of me wants to believe that ALL things are possible through Him who believes and therefore some dross would be removed. The other part whispers something about not wanting to feel disappointed if things don't seem to change in my heart the way I had hoped. But that just feels like someone who is sitting in a boat being nothing but a "talker" versus getting out of the boat and walking on water. That's always the tough question.

Well, Monday is just around the corner. I'm excited to get started but am in the process of trying to prepare. It feels like I'm going out of town or something. But I know this will be worth it, that I do know for sure.

God is good!

Blessings, Tanya