A Suprise for Spencer

Today was a bit crazy, but turned into quite a blessing. Spencer had an extended day at school today and being a bit out of it I didn't see that on the class schedule. My step-mom has been gracious enough to be taking Spencer to his preschool class and picking him up when it was over. But, on these days she needs to be to work so she is unable to pick him up at the later time. I was in a bit of panic because I wasn't sure how I would get him home. I felt such an incredible surge of frustration come over me and felt so powerless to be able to care for my own child I was beside myself for a few minutes.

However, after pulling it together I realized that maybe I was well enough to go get him myself. I haven't driven a car since April of last year so I wasn't sure how it would go and I have been feeling a bit more tired lately. Anyway, long story short I shot up a prayer asking God to give me the strength to do this because I wanted so badly to be the one to pick him up. And that's just what I did. You should have seen the look on Spencer's face when he came out the door and saw me standing there. Its the first time I've been able to greet him as he has come out of class and he looked at me like I was a ghost. He couldn't believe it! And, then he got this huge smile on his face and said, "Mommy, are you well enough to come get me?" Then he started introducing me to all his friends and saying, "This is my mommy, she came to get me." I can't tell you the joy I felt of being able to stand in front of that door and give him a big hug when he came out. And to see the look on his face was...well...priceless.

I know there are times that we as mom's feel run down from doing all those "mommy" things and sometimes wish for a break at times - well deserved of course - but for me I am thankful everytime I can do anything at all that includes being there for my kids. I know I will never take for granted being able to make a meal or give a bath, or even read a bed time story. All things I still have hope to be able to do more of in the future.

I think I'm still a little guarded at times and don't want to let my hopes get too high, but for now rather than analyzing every symptom or feeling worried when I'm more tired than usual, I'm just trying to give thanks for any little thing that I can accomplish. Today I'm feeling incredibly thankful!